Pariah Meaning
From Tamil பறையர் (paṟaiyar), from பறையன் (paṟaiyaṉ, “drummer”), from பறை (paṟai, “drum”) or from Malayalam പറയർ (paṟayar), from പറയൻ (paṟayan, “drummer”), from പറ (paṟa, “drum”). Parai in Tamil or Para in Malayalam refers to a type of large drum designed to announce the king’s notices to the public. The people who made a living using the parai were called paraiyar; in the caste-based society they were in the lower strata, hence the derisive paraiah and pariah. A person who is rejected from society or home; an outcast. A demographic group, species, or community that is generally despised. Someone in exile. A member of one of the oppressed social castes in India.
My InterpretationThe thing about depression is that it is like a black liquid paint that keeps pouring down in an in stoppable force on the canvas that is your mind. It consumes the best of your memories and turn them dark. This story is one of such episodes.' I'm tired of weaknessTired of my feet of clayI'm tired of days to comeI'm tired of yesterdayAnd all the worn-outThings that I ever saidNow it's much too lateThe words stay in my head'Protagonist seems to be a victim to some psychological disorder and doesn't realize that he is suffering from chronic depression. He feels lonely but does npt seem to understand this sadness.' So the day will begin againTake comfort from meIt's up to you nowYou're still here andYou'll dig in againThat's comfort to youIt's up to you nowSo Pariah, you'll begin againTake comfort from meAnd I will take comfort from you'And most often than not, depression makes you self-absorbed and disconnected from your surrounding. In this uncaring world we live in today, people may be able to see you struggling, but won't give a rat's ass about it. Instead brand you as an unstable freak - Pariah.
On the other hand, someone who truly loves you will do everything possible to fix things. But if you are in denial of your situation, they can do nothing but try and comfort you in all possible ways. Denial has its own schemes and usually comes with million hangups.'
I'm tired of FacebookTired of my failing healthI'm tired of everyoneAnd that includes myselfWell being alone nowIt doesn't bother meBut not knowing if you areWell that's been Hell, you see'When someone suffers from depression, their unwillingness to accept it can develop a false sense of self evaluation which leads on to a much confused state of mind while amplifying overall negativity. Seems like the case with our Protagonist who is struggling to distract himself from that very thought. They see his suffering and want to help him out but he ends up shutting himself out. Animal super squad. Is it possible that denial can be a 'call for help' in disguise?
He starts hating himself, but what he hates more is that he has pushed his loved one so far away that now he can't even know of their well-being.' So the day will begin againTake comfort from meIt's up to you nowYou're still here andYou'll dig in againThat's comfort to youIt's up to you nowSo Pariah, you'll begin againTake comfort from meIt will take time'Our Protagonist is really loved by this person.
Pariah, member of a low-caste group of Hindu India, formerly known as “untouchables” but now called Dalits. The word pariah—originally derived from Tamil paṛaiyar, “drummer”—once referred to the Paraiyan, a Tamil caste group of labourers and village servants of low status, but the meaning was.
They believe things will be fine for him. Despite having no choice but to go away, they keep hoping for his well-being, but now it's up to him to begin again.
It may take a long time and it will be difficult but whenever he feels weak, they want him to know that they will be there to comfort him.' Don't you worryDon't worry about a thing'cause nothing really diesNothing really ends.' Our protagonist is all alone and probably free now to work on himself. He is slowly becoming aware of what really happened. This line comes up as the Protagonist's assurance to his loved one, in quite silence. Unsure of how things will turn out for him further ahead, he wants them to know that his love for them will never die.